Motherhood after 12 weeks

 

I must confess, I started out wanting to write something at 8 weeks, then it become then 10, and finally it bore fruition at 12 weeks. Better late than never they said.

In the last 12 weeks, I have spent an inordinate amount of time cuddling and kissing my little one. Many afternoons were lost just staring at a sleeping infant, not daring to move lest it would break his very short afternoon naps. But like they said, the days are long but the years are short. I love my little man with all my heart, but truth to be told, it did not come instantly. I thought it would initially and was a little disappointed that my primary emotion upon bringing him home (in the initial two weeks) was being overwhelmed. I am glad its no longer the case. In the last couple of weeks, I have started to have so much fun with him!

I attribute my initial feelings to the long and difficult labor that I had to endure. The labor was long and difficult but the emotional toil was the one that hit me like a ton of bricks. The 2 weeks after his birth, were one of the most difficult weeks in my life. The crazy emotions and trying hard to figure out what the baby wanted and was so so so tough. I hope I am better for it. Kris as usual took up his new role like a champion and was the greatest dad to Kayen and most supportive husband to me. For that, I’m supremely grateful.

Over the weeks tho, things slowly got better and better and better. As I sit here typing this entry, I feel like we have come so far in this parenting journey. Almost everyone told us, it gets better over time. It was hard to envision that in the early weeks, but it really has gotten so much better and so much more enjoyable as I watch him grow and develop into his own person.

My little Kayen, oh my little precious ball. He has grown into such a little man. Every single day, I seem to love him just a tiny bit more. He drives me insane somedays, but he would smile and coo at me afterwards, and it makes everything alright. This little tiny being, has captured both our hearts and minds, and we would do almost anything to make sure we try our level best to be the parents that he deserves. Its quite so special that in terms of looks and temperament, he’s a little bit of the both of us.

Random baby milestones/memorable stuff at this stage.

  1. He discovered his hands, and loves to put them in a prayer position.
  2. He’s obsessed with mummy and tracks her by turning his entire head as she moves around the room.
  3. His cries have evolved (Cranky, Hungry, Play with me/Attention, Pain. Sometimes they evolve to Uncontrollable Screams!!!!! if you haven’t found the source of his cries after a few minutes) This kid has very healthy lungs for sure!
  4. 3 to 4 naps a day (Ranging from 20 to 40 mins)
  5. 3 to 5 hour stretches at night (Although his pacifier drops in between and he always whines for us to pop it back in, mighty annoying because then our precious 3 to 5 hour stretches are always broken up!)
  6. Poops around 5 times a day
  7. Eats around 8 times a day
  8. His big fat gummy smiles! That heart melter!
  9. He adores his baby floor play mat with hanging toys and can spend 20-30 mins playing around and coo-ing cutely.
  10. He has begun ‘chatting’ with us. We talk to him about whats going on around him, what we’re doing (i.e. making an avocado sandwich for lunch) and he responds accordingly. He does that a few times a day if we’re lucky, with random baby noises. Its SUPER CUTE!
  11. Someone gifted us a Boppy Napper, something I wouldn’t have bought on my own, but it has been a lifesaver during the day. He happily would lay down on it and play with his rattle toys. We would read and sing to him while he’s on it and he seems v comfortable.
  12. He loves his cocoon-ed car seat (J.J.Cole Bundle Me) has kept him snug all winter. He can sleep for an hour in the car seat if we’re constantly moving, although as he grows, he has more awake time and less inclined to want to be in there for longer stretches. Probably wise to get more toys for it.
  13. He has met some kids around his age, stares at them for a while and then gets bored.
  14. He loves to blow bubbles and drools lots! (Apparently his gums are preparing for teeth and is kinda white and itchy, because he loves to chomp on his baby teether!)
  15. He recognizes adults who are not his parents and stares at them cautiously!
  16. He dislikes tummy time with a vengeance. He cries longer for it, compared to his 2 month shots!
  17. He calls for attention by having this, “Aiieeeee, Arrrrgeeeee” sounds. SUPER DUPER CUTE! Unless it escalates into a full blown cry of course.
  18. He loves his Mama and Dada! He greets us with happy ‘arrrrrrr’ laughs and cheeky smiles.
  19. Loves to grab my finger and hoist himself from a sleeping position to a sitting position. Its a colossal effort for him because his head is almost 1/4 his entire body. Its funny to watch him huff and puff his way up.

He’s undoubtedly our greatest love! Make no mistake tho, he requires my attention 24 hours a day and sometimes I miss the days I could just shower languorously, put on some non-nursing clothing and go have fun. These days everything has to be timed and organized according to His Lordship’s feeding/sleeping schedule. But I would have it no other way. He’s so so precious! At 12 weeks old, he has a pretty fun temperament, he’s supremely curious about everything so the sure fire way of cheering him up is to carry him upright and walk everywhere.

Happy 12 weeks my sweet sweet baby boy, Mummy loves you so much! Daddy is enthralled by your cuteness!

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38 weeks baked!

Dear Darling Kai Kai,

You probably weigh about 6-7 pounds right now, although sometimes I feel like I’m hurling around what feels like a 20 pound baby. You’re so big and so strong! You kick me a lot, and boy do you really kick me HARD sometimes. Sometimes, I have to stop for a bit and take a breather when you kick right up into my lungs. By and large, you are such an active baby and my favorite part of the day is when you swirl cutely around my belly after a meal or sweet treat. I chat with you most then, when you’re giving me gentle kicks and rolling around gently in ma belly.

Daddy’s birthday is tomorrow, but this year he hasn’t thought much about his birthday at all. I asked him what he wanted for dinner and he said: “Cream Pasta” from a bottle because mama cannot eat tomato based sauces. I think we can do better than that tho, we can order Italian food in for dinner for Daddy’s birthday! I’ve been trying hard to eat a repertoire of foods because I’m so afraid that your palette will be like Daddy! He doesn’t like most Asian food and can eat pasta and cold sandwiches everyday. Seems like you like rice a lot, or rather, rice doesn’t make mama sick, so we have been eating lots of rice! I cannot wait to see how you’re going to be like, I predict that you’ll be a feisty one and really beat to the sound of your own drum.

Continue to grow well sweet little boy! Mummy and Daddy are ready to meet you whenever you are ready to see the world! We’re going to have so many awesome adventures together!

Love,

Mama!

91% done with pregnancy!

Dearest Darling Kai Kai,

I cannot believe I’m 91% done with pregnancy, the app that I have been using told me that today and I have roughly about 3 more weeks to go. I absolutely cannot wait to hold you in my arms!

Today, I did the last bit of laundry (I say that a lot, because I keep seeing cuter things and cannot resist!) and packed the hospital bag for the both of us! Coming home clothes + clothes to nurse you in, among other random stuffs. I packed cookies too, because everybody needs cookies!

Daddy said something very touching the other day and sent mummy’s waterworks flying. Which by the way, has been turned on very frequently these days. I think its the hormones. But whoever tells me I’m hormonal gets his/her head bitten off very very quickly! Never tell a pregnant women, it must be the hormones, unless you want to be yelled at. But hey, at least I’m cognizant. Right? Heh.

I digress.

Daddy said that, “Our number one job now, is to raise you to be a good person and nothing else matters as much as you do!” I was very happy, because I thought that Daddies bond with the baby much later, but I think Daddy loves you as much as Mummy does! Which makes me so so happy! He reads to you, almost everyday and kisses mama’s belly often and rubs her belly to feel you. He claims that every time he lays his golden touch on you, it calms you down, he’s right 80% of the time actually. Here’s hoping that when you’re shrieking outside mama’s tummy, he will have the same calming effect!

We love you so very much and cannot wait to cuddle you in our arms! Thank you for listening to mama and continued to bake inside my comfortable and safe belly (after last week’s scare ). We will see you very soon and we cannot be more excited to be your parents!

Love,

Daddy and Mummy!

 

 

 

 

Halloween Costume

Dear Kai Kai,

I have been invited to some Halloween parties and was racking my brains over something simple to wear. Goodness knows I don’t need even more maternity wear because I’m going to see you in 5 weeks. Time truly flies! I have been baking you with love, in my tummy for 8 months. It was not been an entirely smooth journey, but I wouldn’t have it any other way. You are truly an active baby and always kicking up a storm in mama’s tummy. You have begun to recognize daddy’s voice and when he reads to you at night, you will kick and squirm around excitedly. It makes him very very happy. You are so very loved!

Back to the point of this post …..

So I wanted you to be part of the costume and this is what I came up with! A watermelon costume!

I’m going to use construction paper and paste a slice of water melon on my belly and we will both come dressed as a FRUIT!

I cannot wait to dress you up in a costume next year! Oh the fun we will have thru many many halloweens.

I love you little buns, see you very soon!

Love,

Mama Watermelon!

Daddy wants to shop?

Say what? Yes Baby! You heard me right! Daddy actually wanted to buy you more clothing! Daddy hates shopping but when we went to Macy’s the other day, Daddy saw a bunch of onesies and somehow decided, he NEEDS to get those for you!

Full disclosure: During child birthing class, he had such difficulty trying to put on the onesies that go over the baby’s head, so he decided that the zip up ones were more ‘Daddy friendly’! ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚ But then he saw the space ship onesie that said, ‘Super Awesome’ and the little boy hidden in him couldn’t resist! So here you go, another 3 newborn onesies for you! Try not be over 9 pounds when you’re born, so we can get better mileage for these!

Little Tater Tot

Dear Little Tater Tot,

Mummy has given you lots of nicknames and you aren’t even born yet! ย This name was inspired by Daddy’s favorite food, the humble potato tater tot. We went for a child birthing class yesterday at NYU Langone and Daddy swaddled a ‘mock you’ like a little tater tot, hence the nickname!

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Mummy is very proud of Daddy! For 2 whole Saturdays, we woke up early in the morning and went for class from 9.30am to 4pm. We learnt lots about managing the labor process, pain management, the birth process and infant care. In class, plenty of Dads were using the phone, going out to get calls and surfing the internet, but your Daddy was patiently writing notes and jotting down questions for our OB. (Mummy did the same too just in case you were wondering!)

Going for the child birthing class was pretty useful, being pregnant is a pretty big deal and life changing experience for the both of us. I have been uncomfortable for weeks now, between really really really bad acid refluxes, nausea, insomnia, back pain, sciatica, painful Braxton Hicks, difficulty breathing and the works, Mommy’s been trying very hard to prepare myself both mentally and emotionally for your birth. It has not been entirely smooth sailing, but I’m so grateful that you’re growing big and strong. As much as I’m uncomfortable physically, I hope you will bake inside mummy for as long as you need! So that you can come out healthy, happy and cuddly! Apparently you’re measuring big and when I saw your chubby cheeks in the scan, I was stoked! I hope you have chubby cheeks like mama!

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Daddy was very cute in class, he was holding the mock doll with such affection even the instructor couldn’t help but smile at his tenderness. I think you’re going to be super lucky baby because he will be the best Dad in the world!

In about 6 weeks, we will probably see your beautiful little face and we cannot wait to begin many adventures with you. First of which, would probably be to survive the lack of sleep and initial shock of having a tiny tater tot entirely dependent on us. With a little patience from us, and a little cooperation from you, I’m sure we’ll do fine.

I love you my little precious tater tot!

Love,

Mama.